Lyrics Tuesdays #6-Waiting in Line

A decision was made a few months ago.

I decided to become an entity.  Work as a freelancer in publicity, marketing, and composer.  I always said I was a freelancer, but I made it super clear to my connects, friends, and family that this is what I want to do in the music industry.

It wasn’t easy, and as a result I stayed at a job that I liked, but was hoping it would be a temporary fixture in my life.  But I need an income.  I don’t live on hand outs, and my family is more than supportive, but I want to do this on my own, without their financial help.  So I live at home, help around the house in any way possible, while sweeping floors and making coffees, and in the meantime, discuss with the clients I have the next steps in their process, and compose either when I come home from this job, or when I wake up.  I do not stop, because I do not want to stop this dream.  This dream for a woman who can wear more than one hat, and look good doing so.  And succeed in balancing these hats.

It is rewarding, declaring myself a work in progress young woman, but it ain’t easy.  I sometimes second guess. I sometimes get overwhelmed. I sometimes get agitated, and throw my pillow across the room, or have anxiety.  But these are the motions that I decided to go through, and although I live with anxiety and OCD, I don’t let that define my life.  It does add a hitch in the road, but one that I am proud of, because it made me who I am, and created a stubbornly driven woman.

It takes a lot to admit this, since I don’t tell many people about my private life.  But if anything, this makes me human.  We all have things that block us, maybe hinder our decisions, or even stop us from doing what we want to do.  But I chose to not let my money situation, my anxiety, nor other barriers get in my way.

I learn patience, and will live it.

So what do I do? I listen to music, emulate the feelings, and feel.  Because being a self-made woman, or strive for this goal, one must love thyself!

So here is a song that I have listened to constantly, that has made me jump, and made me make such crazy decisions.  I decided to stop standing still, and keep on going.  I thank all of those who pushed me towards this path.  I am not a motionless wheel, that is for sure!

Thank you Zero 7

“In The Waiting Line”

Wait in line
‘Till your time
Ticking clock
Everyone stop

Everyone’s saying different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone’s saying different things to me
Different things to me

Woooohh
Do you believe
In what you see
There doesn’t seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe in
What you see

Nine to five
Living lies
Everyday
Stealing time
Everyone’s taking everything they can
Everything they can
Everyone’s taking everything they can
Everything they can

Woooohh
Do you believe
In what you feel
It doesn’t seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you see

Ah and I’ll shout and I’ll scream
But I’d rather not have seen
And i’ll hide away for another day

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you see

Everyone’s saying different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone’s taking everything they can
Everything they can

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